Pain

A sense of loss...
that doesn't hurt...
it's beyond the reach of emotional pain
and since there is no pain there is no hope
no hope of healing
A sense of loss...
that's numb...
as if under a permatent dose of anesthesia
you know its going nowhere...
you'll just learn how to live with it...
like a stitch under your breast...  
you'll get used to looking at it in the mirror every morning
unconsciously massaging it while watching tv hoping that it goes away...
but you know it won't  
then one day you might find a cure...
a person or people who can take it away... heal it...
don't be alarmed when you don't want them to...
you've gotten used to this presence
this lifeless faint recollection of pain...
you won't want it to go away  
you see... pain is more faithful than happiness...
it doesn't go away that easily which is why we like it better than happiness and experience it more than happiness  
its like a very strict sports coach
makes us cry, troubles and tests us
tired and exhausted we end up falling asleep cursing it most nights  
but every morning...
we wake up...stronger and mightier
knowing we've fought it this far and we'll fight it again...and again...  
pain is a friend...
but it has a job to do...
and its bloody good at it.