Thursday, May 26, 2011

Nevermind

DATE: Twentieth May 2011
DAY: Friday

Listen, Where are you? are you there? do you even care? are you alone like I am?
or do you have some one you think you love? don't hold on to her too long
because I'm the one for you,its hard to be strong,but I've no other option but to wait for you right?
It's tough though you should know that, I'm almost twenty,and I spent my 19th valentines alone
were you alone too?
how old are you?
where were you born?
what school did you go to?
are you a university graduate from Delhi?
you are the missing piece of my puzzle, god knows when will I ever find you
how many guys will i have to date before we finally meet?
I'm actually trouble shooting can you believe that?
will you love me just the way I am?
Because I will...will you come see my dance rehearsal? I hope you like to dance...that will be so nice.
will you let me make maggie for dinner when I'm tired? I promise I will make up for it the next day with a super awesome dinner. I wonder what you're doing this time, are you sleeping? are you facebooking? do you have exams too? will you make fun of me when you read this after many years? Do I ask too many questions? Will you buy me flowers? and take me to Italy when we afford it? and The Bahamas and Egypt too? you don't have to though I'm just telling you as much as I know about myself. I can be really stupid sometimes, will you forgive me for that?
and oh when I say m really sorry and try to hold your hand when we fight, don't shirk me off please, because when I do that it means I've thought of not doing it a ten thousand times, and if you shirk me off once, I might never do it again for the fear of you shirking me again and then we'll keep fighting for ever. Do I even make sense?
I might meet you any day right? Mom thinks she is going to find you out for me... I don't know if that's true I don't want it to be...she will win then, and that will make me feel that you would not have fallen in love with me had it not been for mom to find you out, as in on my own I could not have made you fall in love with me. Will you love me? or will it be like a formal arranged thing? I don't like how that sounds.
Never mind, I'm going to sleep I have my popular fiction exam tomorrow. bye

Sunday, May 15, 2011

vo barish ki raat

"aaj yun hie baal sukhaate sukhaate
cheenton ke saath tumhari yaad chalak aayi
tumhari baton se jo hansi uthti thi...
usski goonj ke saath chalak aayi
phir towel se jab baal barse
toh vo baarish ki raat yaad aa gayi
jab geele baalon mei tumhe uljhaya tha
phir raat bhar baith ke tumne
apni baaton mei suljhaya tha
har suljhi baat ulajhti ja rahi thi
aur mai anjaane tumhare paas aa rahi thi
maine toh balon se bass shararat ki thi
tumne shararat ka faayda uthaya tha
baal suljhate suljhate apni chal mei fasaaya tha
kamar ke bal pe jane kaunsa saaz chedaa tha
gardan se baansuri bajaayi thi
hothon pe raagini sajaai thi
tumhare sur se aasman mei diye jal gaye thhe
tunhare hathon mei saarey jahan simat gae thhe
kaandhe pe din ho jataa tha
peeth pe raat ghir aati thi
phir aankh khulli toh khud hie hans ke socha
sochne se hoga bhi kya?
baal sukh gae hain
ab baandh hie leti hun"

Thursday, May 5, 2011

Kal Aaj aur Kal

nanhe nanhe haathon se jab cement ke ghar banaate thhe
phir park ke nalke ke neeche sab yaar milke nahaate thhe
ma aur daadi cheekh cheekh ke chhat se bulaya karte thhe
aur hum sharma uncle ke ghar ke pichey chhip jaya karte thhe

har sunday miley panch rupaiyon se kulfi khaya karte thhe
aur kabhi kabhi bachaake paise bada baloon laya karte thhe
phir aya mera birthday aur shehzaadi hui nau saal ki
aur papa laye cycle ek, jiski ghanti thi kamaal ki

bas uss din se toh ghar aatey hie basta phenka garden mei
aur bhari dhup mei nikal padey hum roz ki apni gasht pe
chote bhaiya ko bithaa ke badey dhyan se apne peeche
saer sapaata dhamaa chaukdi khule aasman ke neeche

bhaiya toh jaise thhe navaab aji unke badey thaath thhe
ghunghraale baal,chamakti aankhei, chote chote haath thhe
unhi chotey chotey hathon se vo pistol chalaya karte thhe
jab naya khilona nazar mei aae toh hamei bulaya karte thhe

“ab bas hua ye pistol vistol nahi aati hai raas hamei
vo laal santro choti vali lagti hai badi khaas hamei”
aur hum gullak utaarte phir mandir se sambhal ke
aur hairpin aur clay se jhatt se paise thhe nikal te

phir bhaiya-didi hath pakkad ke market jaya karte thhe
aur laal santro,kalaa chuha,cosco laya karte thhe
badey massom badey natkhat badey bhole badey nadaan thhe hum
bachpan mei iss bachpan se naraaz thhe anjaan thhe hum

phir sweater, frock aur chappal hamei ho gae chotey
aur jootey ke size bhi har season change hotey
aur hamne seekh liya cycle chod scooty chalana
chod dia lukka chuppi aur sadkon pe ganaa

ab na hum nalke ke neeche nahaya karte thhe
aur na hie sharma uncle ke ghar jaya karte thhe
cheeku aur bittu ke hath pakadne mei jane kyu sahrm aati thi
aur ye vahi dost thhe jinke kandhe pe baith mai shehtut khati thi

pehle sath daudte doston ko hum zakhm nahi marham dete thhe
pehle jo na lage apna sa ussey tab hie katti keh dete thhe
pehle badey hone ki hod thhi ab bachpan ki chaah hai
pehle rahein hie manzil thi, ab manzil ke liye raah hai