Thursday, March 31, 2011

Shove it bully

I was just taking a walk in our society park when this really shy girl from 4th floor came from her coaching class, red cheeks watery eyes and all. So i waved at her, but she just called the lift and went home. i plugged on my i-pod and started walking again, i generally choose the stairs so while going back home i saw her sitting on the stairs,crying. Awkward as i am around wailing strangers, i thought i'd just creep back and use the lift instead
"why do they do this to me all the time?" she said suddenly and i realized my presence hadn't gone unnoticed. So i sat beside her and asked her in a calm soothing tone (i think) "who? what do they do?"
" These girls from class,they always push me around, making fun of my braces, poking me, calling me all sorts of 'fat names' i always help all of them with homework hoping they'd like me but... *choke* *sob* *choke* they don't ever play with me except hide and seek and then they hide and i can never find them...*choke* they never eat with me or call me for sleepovers... *choke over load threat* so i tried to calm her down by asking her if we could be friends. To which she replied with a 'braces special smile' and an enthusiastic nod of the head. So i invited her for a sleepover at my place, i asked her what theme would she like for our little sleepover and she said 'disney' so i said
"great then, get some disney pajamas and meet me at my place at eight" i called her mom and asked for permission. i went home fished out my own mickey mouse t-shirt (yes i have one and a winnie pooh wallet too) went to the market and got some balloons and a small disney chocolate box. We played the whole night, thumb painting, ludo, video games, then make-up man, balloon puppets, little baker what not. While tucking her in bed i told her "people who make you do their homework and then bully you around are never your friends"
"who are friends then?" she asked
after some thought i said "people who make you smile when you're crying"
"that means you" she said and hugged me (my turn to choke, i swallowed) and said
"yes, and from now on just remember one thing a bully only needs a bigger bully, i want you to go to school tomorrow and let them know they can't kick you around like that anymore, you're a strong girl and will fight back"
"yes i will" she said with that indignant face only an eleven year old can make.
"now go to sleep" i said, smiling.

The Girl you just called fat?
She has been starving herself & has lost over 30lbs.
The Boy you just called stupid?
He has a learning disability & studies over 4hrs a night.
The Girl you just called ugly?
She spends hours putting makeup on hoping people will like her.
The Boy you just tripped? He is abused enough at home.

There's a lot more to people than you think.

and moreover...what makes you think you're any authority to laugh at someone else anyway?

P.S. You should see her now, she never cries and we often play baddy in the park, she even has a boyfriend "sshssshhhh pinky secret, don't tell mum". :) :)

Tuesday, March 29, 2011

from the inside

A blank canvas is what i am
and no paint stays for long
happens a splash and colors
but is washed off before it dries
i scare the mirror these days
what am i going to be?
the faith has gone
the shine has frosted
the bubbling energy of youth
has somewhat lost it's fizz
a little too soon
she says I'm going to make
a woman of myself
my head bows down a little more
under the sky of expectations
i'd rather not disappoint
a blank canvas i'm only that
just hope the color stays long enough
this time.

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

Impatient fingers

Rough hands, dry eyes
hollow echoes of laughter
i had been, i could have been
we had been we could have been
so much more and lesser too
hot bowls of maggie noodles
with onions tossed in butter
you never liked me cooking did you?
"i prefer you raw" you'd said
i used to melt faster than the butter
onions crackling beside the two of us
a drop of oil escapes the pan
searing down my bare back
and the ice you rubbed on the sore
burnt me all the more
"lets just order pizza" damn your impatient fingers
cold marble, hot breath and your impatient fingers.